Seasons and creativity

There are seasons in a person’s life.

Though I don’t think they come in cycles similar to the ‘typical’ seasons we have like chilly, spring, summer and monsoon. (We don’t really have winter and autumn here, I think.) I think that the seasons come and go in varying durations and cycles.

These days I can’t help but think that I am in the season to just explore other creative stuff I haven’t really been exposed to or wanted to try before but didn’t have the resources. That or I didn’t have the courage to try them out. Maybe it’s because I think I ‘missed out’ on some other things because I focused on particular interests I had/have.

Some things I am interested in right now didn’t appear to be this interesting before. While other interests I have, I still like them but I don’t feel like spending so much time on them, if you know what I mean. Like technology, I am still interested in technology but it’s not the same as before. I don’t think it has died down. It’s probably just taking a bit of a backseat for now. Maybe I’ve tried too hard to keep with it more than what was enough for me. Maybe right now, I might be saturated with the technology because I work in the IT industry and I just feel the need to keep work and play as different things.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s because I don’t feel that there’s a tangible thing to work with when it comes to analysis. I mean, the situations are there, the people are there but I can’t hold it physically and I can’t mold it physically. I noticed that I’ve been fascinated with personal projects that give me something tangible or at least immediately visible and the ‘high’ I get from that is something I missed a lot.

Like poi. I have the poi in my hands and I could spin them in directions and learn new things to do with them and it’s nice. I could see the results of learning and practicing poi.

Blogging. I could easily see if my blog’s layout sucks, or if my writing is terrible or too verbose.

Now I am getting fascinated with PinkySt dolls and the thought of modding some. That’s something really tangible. But I have yet to research on materials.

My creative side is itching to do something different, something I could say is my work and physically see it. I want myself to be reflected in the things I do. Maybe I spent so much time on working with other people’s template documents and submitting analysis of other organizations’ systems that I am now wanting to just express things in a different manner than before. I don’t really know yet because I don’t understand what’s really going on with me either.

I am just letting all this be part of the season I am in right now. It might pass quickly or it might not. But I am sure that I’d learn a thing or two, somehow.