awkward.
In so many ways it has been an awkward year. It began with me feeling awkward, not quite sure what I’m supposed to do. And it’s ending that way too.
Certain circumstances made it that way and so I had to work with what I had. Ah, well. Despite feeling awkward about my own skills, my own place in this world, etc. I think that I’ve learned a lot. I’ve also gotten a stronger spine. I’ve learned not to always agree with everything. And sometimes I just agree to disagree with people as our opinions on certain matters are quite different.
This year I’ve traveled with friends and co-workers to different parts of the country. Namely, Cebu, Bohol and Palawan. I also went out to another province for a source camp without knowing for certain what I’d be experiencing. All those traveling gave me a different perspective on myself, life and dealing with other people. I’ve deepened my friendship with other people throughout those travels and I’ve gained new friends. Not everyone of them are here in the country though. But that’s fine. Whatever they shared about their culture and their experiences is something I could take with me as I go through life.
This year, I’ve picked up a new skill. Well, sort of. It’s sewing with a sewing machine. We’ve cosplayed with our own costumes this year. That was something really fun 
And I also sewed a plushie for a friend’s magic show. It wasn’t perfect but I’m glad he used it. That was a challenge for me and I’d like to make more plushies in the future. This interest in sewing is because of my growing interest in fashion. Started out with gothic and lolita fashion, as well as steampunk. But I’m also getting interested in Korean fashion because it’s quite accessible to me. Some friends and co-workers who love fashion and crafting are always eager to to share what they know. We’ve been wanting to have days for crafting and as I’ve started learning about hackerspaces I think that we should probably have one too. Not just for crafting but for geeking out too since we’re all geeks and nerds anyway. 
I also had Bell’s palsy for a while. That was pretty awkward. Thankfully I didn’t really have it for a long time. Though I can feel my eyelid drooping from time to time I just do some exercises to make sure it will be fine. Same thing goes for my mouth, when the muscles around it feel like they’re getting stiff. But in general it’s been pretty much ok.
Towards the end of the year, somehow I still feel like I haven’t found my place, so to speak. But I’ve had quite a blast with old friends and new found ones. It wasn’t a smooth ride at all but I’m with friends who have helped me solve issues I’ve encountered. That’s why at the end of it all, I’m thankful.
The Hobby Horse
I think there’s something good about still not having found your place yet. It means that there is still so much room for you to grow into, and oh how exciting all that’s going to be. You never know what sort of beautiful creature is waiting to turn into You.
Happy New Year, dear! Thank you for the year that was, and the beautiful year that has begun.